Secondly, I want to apologize for not getting a giveaway posted. I have been very busy, and I really believe I can get somewhat caught up on my giveaways. In fact, watch for my "Stuff Your Stockings" giveaways this weekend. I'll try to get them all posted. I'm sorry that I couldn't get to it this weekend as I planned, but God is teaching me to be flexible.
Furthermore, I finally have my 2 international winners packages posted. Sorry it took so long. Finances and so much more played into this. So they should go out tomorrow as long as weather does not prevent me from taking it in.
And now to today. I have some wonderful things to share that God shared with me today. I went into a real "tizzy" today as I was getting ready for church. I didn't know how I could do everything I needed to. And so I was "stressed out"! I was almost in tears as I went to church. I really didn't know what to do.
I had been experiencing great victory in the area of Martin. I had really been letting God take over. Unfortunately, I realized that I was trying to handle my dad and even the Christmas program at church in my own strength--pretty pathetic, eh? I realize that I can't do some things in my own strength, but then I try to do other things in my strength. I really am a slow learner in the things of God, aren't I?
So I gave it all over to God. And the stress left. I still had to deal with my dad, and I still had a church Christmas program. But now it was God's problem, not mine. And what a difference that made.
Now here is something God really spoke to me about. I haven't even shared this with my mom--maybe I will. As I sat in the Sunday School class, the speaker on the video spoke of how he worked so hard to make his wife like him when they were dating. He then went on to say that once they got married, he stopped doing all those things. He began to pray that God would change his wife, and God told him that he needed to change. So he went back to showing love because he wanted to, not because he had to. And not so that she would like him.
As I look at my relationship with Martin, I realize that sometimes I am doing things so he will like me or love me. I want to please him. But God doesn't want me to do that. He wants me to show love to Martin just because I love him. And I need to get over my fear of showing too much love to him. It was hard last night as God really impressed me that I needed to approach Martin. I did, and although he politely refused me advances, I felt better. There were times this weekend that I longed for a hug, but I was too scared to reach out for one. I realize that when God impresses me to reach out to Martin, I need to. Martin may reject me at that moment, and I can live through it. If anything, it makes me feel better because I have demonstrated love, and even his momentary rejection of my love will not keep me back.
So God has been teaching me a lot. I have certainly not arrived, but I certainly am understanding more and more about God and how to deal with him.
Thank you to all my wonderful followers. Keep on being patient, and I think you will find some more fun giveaways coming up. And I have lots of reviews I want to do. So just stay with me. I am grateful for every one of you. You are fantastic!
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